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The summer is almost over.  This prolonged-goodbye, gorgeous gift of a summer.  After graduating from Amherst College in May, I was awarded a fellowship to seek publication for my senior thesis, “A Form of Thinking Called Arendt,” and I jumped at the opportunity not only to release this piece of writing that I care so much about into the world, but also to spend two last mellow, sun-soaked months in the Pioneer Valley while enough continuity still exists to call it home, rather than what it will have to be now, a place I visit sometimes.  It was draining enough to try to say goodbye to all my people, my dear friends and beloved mentors, after graduation, and so I was grateful to have a little bit more time to say goodbye to the place.  And so, in between carving into the 125-page document that I had arbitrarily, and of course incorrectly, declared “finished” last April, I wandered up and down the bike path, contemplated Tuttle Hill, and allowed myself the nostalgia that has been preemptively shaping the contours of my time at Amherst since the first time I saw the view from Frost to Memorial Hill.  

I’m sad, almost horrified, to realize that I will not be in New England for the foliage this year.  Autumn has always been my favorite season, for the colors of the leaves, the crispness, and the excitement of going back to school.  Maybe that’s the thing, though—I’m not going back to school.  For the first time in ~18 years, this rhythm has been shaken, and even thought the nights are getting colder, I can feel myself slowing down rather than speeding up.  I’m missing the changing of the leaves, I should say, because I’m heading back to Cape Town to work once more at the Legal Resources Centre in October and November.  I couldn’t be more thrilled. LRC-CT-Take-II requires it’s own blog post—hell, even it’s own blog—but for now I’ll just say that there’s a kind of poetry in the fact that I’ll retreat to Cape Town’s early summer, skip fall almost entirely this year, and then hopefully realign it once more with Back to School next year for graduate school.

This blog has always been a kind of scrapbook, less writing than reblogs, bits of beauty that I want to commemorate and share.  And the truth is, I hate writing about myself.  Lili has always been the blogger.  I would so much rather write in the style where I feel most like myself, namely, when I’m writing about theory.  For me, that always means trying to occupy the gap between, the non-coincidence of, thinking and action, theory and activism, solitude and the shared, political world.  As I take on the project, which must be done intentionally to an extent if it is to be done well, of trying to process the last four years, I need to let that contradiction lie exposed in my own writing.  There is a permanence to having written that clashes with the unfinished quality that inheres in all writing through which, in the act of releasing it into the world. we relinquish our control.  I’m ready to release my stranglehold on the various self-narrativizations that formed the framework of my time at Amherst.  Not because they no longer matter but because they matter so much, and because I want to step away from them and try to recognize them anew.  I want to save them and myself from the ways in which the stories we write for ourselves about our own lives become cliches.  And I’m committed to the project of trying to love writing, not just the feeling of having written.  Overcoming the desire for ignorance; letting myself go.

I don’t know whether and how often I will write.  I do plan to share some of the (un)finished writing that has occupied my time recently on this blog.  I’d like to let go of some of the things that I’ve written in my head about sexual violence, self-care, anxiety and depression, health, and healing. I’d like to write about politics, about the questions that our time is posing to us. But I’m also secure in the idea that sometimes the only space for such conversations is among friends, those authos allos, other selves, with whom I can feel at home in the world.  You all are who I write for, in any event.  

With that in mind,



Photographing Ebola in Liberia

John Moore, a senior staff photographer from Getty Images, is covering the Ebola outbreak in Liberia.

In the New York Times, he writes:

I have worked in high-risk environments with some frequency in my career, but instead of a flak jacket and helmet, this time I brought anticontamination suits, including coveralls, masks, goggles, rubber gloves and boot covers, all of which are disposable after a single use in places like Ebola isolation wards. I stocked up on antiseptic gel, wipes and sprays. I also brought rubber boots, which were lent to me by my father-in-law, a retired journalist who is now a fisherman. He said I could keep them.

Here in Liberia, I wash my hands in chlorinated water at the entrance to most buildings, dozens of times a day, whether I have gloves on or not. Because Ebola is not airborne but is rather transmitted through bodily fluids, it’s important not to touch your face after being in contaminated areas. We tend to touch our faces many times per day without realizing it. I’m trying hard to stay safe.

The Times has a gallery of Moore’s images here.

Bonus: Yesterday, NPR interviewed Moore about an incident in the Liberian capital, Monrovia, where protestors attacked a quarantine center and forced its patients to leave the facility. Moore tells NPR that “a fair number of people… believe that the Ebola virus and the epidemic is a hoax, that it’s not real after all, and it’s a way for the Liberian government to bring in foreign money.”

Image: John Moore wears his “personal protective equipment” before joining a Liberian burial team that was removing the body of an Ebola victim from her home, via the Daily Mail. The Mail also has a gallery of Moore’s work. Select to embiggen.

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{ night and day }

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by alanimohammed:

mohammed alani 2010

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gpoy every day studying theory.

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this is gold

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Artist Eric Drooker shares the inspiration behind next week’s cover, “Ferguson, Missouri.”

"Everybody wants to be a cat."

Taylor—I know you’re reading this and this one’s for you.

"Everybody wants to be a cat."

Taylor—I know you’re reading this and this one’s for you.

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So how much money do you figure we could raise …



if George W. just charged a fee for everyone who wanted to dump ice water on his head? or even an auction?


We’d raise billions.

all day.  

Psychoanalysis is "the art of caring for the capacity for thought, and the science of maintaining the desire for justice under conditions where it is in danger of being extinguished in the overwhelming, suffocating obviousness of what is, of what ex-ists, of the seeming, apparent impossibility of looking at the world and saying what is not but could be, of finding some lack in the world that then becomes my own lack, the thing that pulls me forward throughout my life."

red-eye flights suck.

red-eye flights suck.

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these topping combos will change your avocado game forever

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